starting weight - 187.4 pounds
last weigh in - 156 pounds
current weight - 173.4 pounds
squishyness gain from last weigh in - 17.4 pounds
total squishyness lost - 14 pounds
i’ve gained nearly 20 pounds in the last two weeks because i’ve been binging. no purging. every time i think i have it…
I completely understand. I am struggling every day with my terrible instincts to binge and just keep going and going and going and how terrible I feel afterwards.
But, you are still lower than when you started. 14 pounds less! Which is still great. And you already have been down in the 150’s, so it’s do-able. That’s what I keep telling myself. This summer, I was 150. Now, I’m 171. And a lot of times I want to just eat more and more chocolate and french fries and say fuck it because I gained so much of it back. But hten I remind myself that I know how to lose weight. I did it before. And it sucks for a while, my body hurts and all I want are tasty treats that are bad for me, but it pays off when I do a week and I see the numbers go down.
I think tumblr is great. Keeping yourself accountable and not only that but having a support system has been awesome. And, you are the first weight loss blog I ever found on this site, my other tumblr, (storytale) and I was inspired by you to start one myself. So I would say stick to it! And stay on tumblr! I feel like I’m in the same place as you, losing, AGAIN, and feeling really upset I have to do it again. But I know we can do it. We did it already. And it will be fine. Every day is a new day.
I sound obnoxiously happy and annoying, but I hope that helped a little. I feel like I’m writing to myself, too. :) It’s a new week!
